The widening rift.

This is my personal feeling which i'm trying to write down here as I'm unable to talk it out with any one.Iresigned from my job about two years ago, 'cause the presence of my husband in the same company was creating many difficult situations for me. e.g. He was very highly placed, everyone or two years he was transferred,without me being transferred.Every time I had to face very unpleasant scenes when I went to request my transfer. 'cause after he went I would have to shift to a quarter according to my designation. That would turn out to be very humiliating. It was not that I couldn't stay in a smaller quarter, it was the question of starting all over again in the same place.That and other problems compelled me to resign the day he was made the head of the unit. Everything was going smooth. For the first time after marraige I was having a life of my own, going out with friends, shopping ,travelling,visiting children whenever they needed me etc. Then one fine morning my husband left his 27years of his association with his old firm and joined a new concern in south india.Itried my best to adjust to all the different working conditions,but instead of appreciating my efforts my husband had negative comments for me. I happen to be a social person ,making friends and helping people, interacting with any grade of society so long as some useful activity can be achieved. But at this new place the whole scenario is in stark contrast to what was in other north indian plants .The biggest constraint is the language.With no one to talk to ,I gradually becoming depressive. My phone which used to be post paid has been changed to pre paid.So each time I make a call to a friend I'm immediately reminded of the amount of money ihave spent on that talk. So I've stopped calling my friendas.I tried taking up a course but nothing is nearby. You have to travel 30 kms everyday to a shabby class all crammed up to learn computers.Ileft that too.The only consolation is my daughters arrival who is awaiting her posting in Nov.She is a good company but how much can she provide me company. She has her own friend and youthfull activities to look to.My son who is posted to metro, is very uncommunicative,under the pretext of being busy. He doesn't even have time to call me even once a fortnight.I had gone to his new establishment with the expectation that he will be happy with us ( me and my daughter), but it turned out to be very heartrending as he kept on snapping at me for everything I did, finally when I couldn't take the insult anymore , we returned by the earliest flight available.I keep on thinking about him ' cause try as much you cannot severe all ties with your children. There are months when I don't hear from him,unreplied e-mails ,calls not picked up.Then you come to know that he is not well. What will your plight be. When you ring up to advise him to consult a physician, he snaps back with the dialogue" that is the reason I don't tell you anything you start nagging ,and start spreading the news to everyone." Tell me how is a mother going to react to such a situation? If I tell my worries to my husband, he blames me for being very incompetent in managing my children.He won't talk but send me a mail about management tips that he has acquired during his profession.Do you think children can be managed on office management fundas? There's no dialogue between the father and children.He just comes home with his mobile stuck to his ears, has his daily quota of exercise drinks and food and off to bed. I've started feeling I'm living in a guest house with no bonding between family members.Ithink these are the reasons why the children are drifting apart,there's lessening of soft feelings towards humans,every body lives in a close knit world of their own. I feel a misfit in this materialistic world.My only happiness is a close knit family get together often and nothing more. Am I wrong in expecting these?